::you're my saving grace ::

Thursday, December 21, 2006

This newfound friend I met at the club was like an unexpected one. He is cute and is the sweetest guy I've ever met. He is an American-born Chinese. His dad is an American while his mum is a Chinese. Kinda cool rite? He knows how to speak Mandarin and Cantonese which really surprised me. On our first date which happens to be his 23rd birthday, he gave me a dinner treat and I got him a shirt from Topman. He made me laughed all the time with his jokes. He is defintely someone who knows how to treat a lady well. He kissed my hand twice, held my cold hands letting me feel the warmth in his hands, stroking my hair, said he liked my smile as well as sent me home. The poor guy lives at Clementi and he had to take a bus from Jln Toa Payoh all the way back to his home. He called me sweet names and think about my laughter and smile. Isn't he sweet? Aint I lucky? He has nice body and kissable lips. Being with him makes me feel like I am a princess living in a fantasy world.
But hey, I am not in love with him neither will I fall for him anytime soon. Call me stupid or crazy, all I can say is that, he came into my life just a little too late. I kind of have someone on my mind right now but then things are a lil complicated between us right now.
When love doesn't happen, I was so hoping that it will come to me. But when it came, it is just too complicated for me to handle. Am I a heart-breaker? Am I two-timing? Someone said so. I had been led on by someone before and I hated the feeling a lot. I told myself that I will never lead anyone on. But now, I am in a situation when I am leading both guys on. I am sorry and I didn't mean to. It was totally unexpected. I just wish that there is something I can do or say to you but you know I can't.

I am a coward not to tell you how much I miss you and how much I want you by my side.

mich @ 8:00 PM