::you're my saving grace ::

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Thoughts were running through my mind all day,
just like they had been for e previous days.

Things between me and you are straining right now
The last time we talked, I just felt that something was amiss
but I did not really care.
The following day, I had a bazaar at this CC,
I was waiting and hoping that you would come
Then it hit me that no matter how high my anticiaption were,
I would be disappointed at the very end
I figured out explanation has to be given from you
Ever since, not a single message or phone call from you
Today was the first day I saw you since we last chatted.
You were cold and showing an attitude towards me.
Trying to avoid all those things which left unspoken
I just do not know what you were thinking
And you had just let me down
Isn't that common sense when couples are unhappy about each other,
it will be better to sort it out by communicating?
If you want to end the relationship, you can just say it
Instead of avoiding or giving me a cold shoulder
Why are you avoiding my messages or calls?
The thing is that whenever I try to put an effort to be a nice,
it would be just be as futile.
Are you afraid of hurting me or see me cry?
Don't you ever worry about that, because I am not as emotional as you
Moreover, you just lack of the basic qualities a guy should have.
I guess I was wrong to believe that I saw something in you
What happened to all the sweet words or actions that touched me?
It used to hurt me deeply when I think about them
But not anymore
This was a one-sided love and was never meant to be real
It was a rash, gullible decision that we had made

Love is a game that I can never ever defeat
I will never get to find someone whom I love
to make me laugh all the time
to walk side by side with me
to talk to me as if nothing else matters
to teach me things that I'm interested in
and lastly,
to be able to play an instrument while singing.

I've picked up something new to occupy myself
which is drinking.
I had spent a lot on drinking recently
though I know the consequences of drinking
but it does not bothers me that much.
I am going to pick up reading again
and I know that I had been saying that
for every year and still I am being lazy
But this time round, I will do it
Trust me!

Take care and love everyone loads :)

mich @ 9:05 PM