::you're my saving grace ::

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Life has been hectic ever since....
Anyways, was at east coast park 2 weeks ago. Doing some teambuilding session.
Realised that my colleagues are not as bad as I thought to be.
Next session was watching Iron Man. We took the gold class at Vivo. In my opinion, $30 for gold class, is not really worth it unless food and drinks are included. Although the seats are really comfortable I must say, but you have to pay for the food that you ordered from the menu. But it is really worth going in and experience it for yourself though.
Finally, our company celebrated our 40th anniversary at Suntec today. It was really a eventful night and the food is better than what I had expected. Had a great time and truly enjoyed myself.

I'm terribly depressed on splurging on entertainment because i have no fucking money anymore Why is my pay damn fucking low?
I need a fucking haircut, wallet, watch, clothes and mp3 but am contemplating on not doing so because i am hell broke
I've many fucking things to spend on for e month of fucking may and june
I cannot believe i am spending more than what i can fucking afford
I hate myself for lacking of discipline on my own finance
I am fucking poor now and hell, it don't feel good
FUCK THIS LIFE MAN!!

I dont see a fucking need why I need to have a boyfriend or a family
All this is just a very heavy burden to me
I would rather spend the money on drinking, enjoying the luxury of life.
This has always been my thoughts and will always be
because of my past which I never told anyone before
because of who I had met along the way
how all this had drilled into my brain and having no faith or trust in relationship anymore.

I know where the problem lies
You have been wonderful and great
but to me,
everything is just a game
and I am tired of it
and I quitted

mich @ 1:02 AM