::you're my saving grace ::

Friday, August 01, 2008

Met up with my sweetheart last fri and today. OMG!!!! I missed the bitchy him dearly. He changed so much. He looks way better now than in the past. But his hair? Hmm..I shall rather not comment about it. We ate. We drank. Didnt shop at all cuz we were fucking BROKE! Anyways i really feel soooooo glad and thankful for him cuz I know that he is doing something that he enjoys as well as have friends who can understand him. Unlike me, feel so lonely and lost most of the time. Dont know what to do with my messed up life. Somehow, I felt a distant between us. Its like we dont bitch as much and talk as much now. I really miss those 'bitching-sessions' days. Maybe it is because we hardly spend time talking or meeting each other ever since he stepped into 'serving-the-nation' world. Sigh. How I wish I can do something so that the distant thing can just GET LOST TO A FAR FAR AWAY LAND!
Have the tendancy of forgetting to take photos of us. Sigh again.
Think one day I will just die of sighing. Sigh on work, on friends, on studies, on life. Then die.
Anyways lets talk about work
Recently many unhappy things happen during work but today was the worst
One of my colleagues told my boss regarding my interests of doing her work.
Which is SO totally NOT TRUE!!! I am just fucking interested in doing write-up about companies and NOTHING ELSE. Please note: I JOLLY WELL HAVE NO FUCKING INTEREST IN YOUR WHATSOEVER ADMIN DUTIES OR WORK. JUST BECAUSE I AM THE LOWEST RANK IN THE DEPT WHO DOES NOT HAVE ANY ADMIN WORK TO DO, HAVE TO TAKE OVER YOUR FUCKING ADMIN WORK! IF YOU THINK IT IS UNFAIR ABOUT WHY YOU HAVE TO DO ADMIN WORK EVEN THOUGH YOUR RANK IS HIGHER THAN ME?
THEN GO SCREW YOURSELF! YOU ARE JUST ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHOM I CAN NEVER TRUST ANYMORE. Its just seems like I cant trust people anymore.
Please dont try to tell me what I am supposed to do or what I have to do. I can lead my own life. You can control what your boyfriend or your family can or cannot do. BUT you cant fucking control me!

Thankful to have a wonderful family, my darn funny crazy sis, very sweet soulmate, bitchy sweethearts, my forever bitch-ing bestest buddy - Jenny and ya!. Because of them, I will always tell myself that I am not the loneliest person in the planet Earth.

mich @ 11:42 PM