::you're my saving grace ::

Saturday, September 27, 2008

I am so damn tired of everything
Why do you always have to interfere in my personal life
Cant I have my own space?
Cant I have my own time?
I dont fucking see the need to tell you everything about my life
Like where am I going, who am I going out with?
For goodness sake, I am already 22
And you are still so darn controlling
When will you ever let me lead my own life?
Please stop acting like as though you know what am I thinking or how I perceive things
Take relationship as an example,
Does having someone in your life
means that you want to get settle down?
You may perceive i that way
Not for me though,
I had never and will never ever think of settling down with a guy.
It just irks me.
What if I told you the truth?
Will my life changed?
NO!!!
It will never change
It will always be the same no matter what the truth is
You will still control me like what you are doing now
So whats the point of me telling you everything
We simply just cant communicate
And why do you always have to envy about your friends' daughters?
In you eyes, I am simply just a failure and a good for nothing daughter
Or maybe, just one word to describe me, TRASH!
How I fucking wish I can move out
I am contemplating on not doing so because I dont have the financial ability to
For I am always hell broke at the end of the month.
Fuck my sad life.

For me,
I want to be the one making my own money
Making plans for special occasions
To let her know how much she meant to me
I want to be the one waking up every morning
To see her beautiful face and a body to die for.
All these simply just makes me melt inside.
How can I simply not love her?

mich @ 12:32 AM