::you're my saving grace ::

Sunday, March 29, 2009

I have a sucky life. I will be having classes over the weekend starting from this week. This really suck.
Anyhow, class was quite ok. was checking out on Maltese online regarding the behaviour, daily care and etc,. Love and I agreed to adopt one when we live together, I agreed without an hesitation, and will overcome my fear of dogs. And so after class, we went to a pet shop nearby. Saw this cute little Maltese which is like only 3 months old and it cost $1,600. OMG! Its my fucking pay for a month. Looking at its face and the fur, how I wish I can bring one home.
Met up with my cousin and his friend for dinner and drinks. I haven seen him like 2-3 years, maybe? Its still the same old him, teasing me as usual. Brought them to Pump Room. The food was great esp the dessert. Somehow, I wish she was here with me. Saw quite a number of gay couples around. Gosh,, I missed her so so so much.

I know I have been such a terrible lover, always forgetting things, cant be of much help all the time, not being there for you whenever you need me to and what's even worse is that I didnt show my concern when I am supposed to. though I am always making the effort to do whatever I have to do to make you see how much you mean to me. And i know i let you down often,I feel so lousy for failing to do all the above. This really made me tear. Reason being, I am extremely, extremely afraid of losing you coz you are the one whom I love right from the very start. If I have the chance to make everything right, I will do whatever it takes to have it.

mich @ 3:01 AM