::you're my saving grace ::

Thursday, July 02, 2009

We been practically quarrelling a lot this week alone, or rather she has been really angry with me for how irresponsible and self-centered I was. Its true that we have disagreement over many issues BUT not THIS issue. I have never seen her get so mad at me before. I was so upset and angry at myself for making her furious and sobbed because I was afraid that I might lose her.

It freaking scares me just thinking about how things have changed so much between us in such a short period of time. Times like this, it seems like all these has set us drifting apart from each other. We have been spending so little time together now, unlike in the past where we meet up practically everyday. I do miss those times seriously.

Other times, I felt we became stronger than before and seriously glad and happy that love and I are talking and making things work between us instead of calling it quits.

Somehow or rather, I was pretty surprised about the answer that you gave me, I wasnt expecting any of it at all. It really make me feel so touched that despite what happens, you still choose to stay and be by my side. I really want to make it right this time round. It hurts to see your anger and tears for my irresponsible ways. You are always being so supportive, encouraging, patient and concern about me. Most importantly, you are always being truthful about the things I asked you or things you telling me which concerns us. I am seriously grateful for that.

Guess some things aint as easy as you thought it would be. It is simply insane how you think you've got your whole life planned and just to find that it was never ever in your hands. I couldnt control my tears that were flowing down, insecurities started filling inside of me again. What will become of me?

I love you all the same regardless of the upteemth times we quarrelled cos you are the best and will always be. I love you babe.

mich @ 11:23 PM