::you're my saving grace ::

Sunday, August 09, 2009

So we kinda celebrated our anniversary twice. took leave on friday and spent the earlier part of the day nua-ing at her house. headed to town later and had our favourite pasta at Spageddies Italian Restaurant and went to look for my anni gift. Love bought me something that I could wear to work. I know it's been tiring for you but you have been supportive and always loving and caring throughout the whole time. I admit that I am very fussy over the choice of the clothes & accessories, but you were there all along, patiently staying by my side. I love you, baby and am very appreciative of your efforts and everything that you've done for me. I love you with all my heart.
We watched our first musical show together on the eve of our anni. The musical was indeed hilarious but at the same time I learnt something. Behind those stereotypes lie real lives with real problems and real concerns. Guess everybody is the same as everyone else at the end of the day. At the end of it, i couldnt agree more to the morale of the show; it doesnt matter if you are poor, as long as you have friends and family who are there to love and care for you. Cos at the endof the day, that's when true colours of the person is being shown. Headed home after a walk along One Fullerton. Though we didnt really celebrate our anni, and seriously i dont mind cos at the end of the day, im still with the person whom i care and love so much and i still have her and she still have me. that's all that matters to me:))

Able to spend the first half an hour of our one year together. The feeling is so damn great!
it's been a year. yup, definitely a year. never expected to have come this far. you give me the best. and you made my day unknowingly. you gave me the impetus to want to see you. i teared, not having known before how it felt to be cared for so much by someone. i thank heaven for all it.
and i remember so much about everything that happened. all the small little things. and time always passes fast when i'm with you. i feel so blessed when i'm with you.
i love your eyes. the way you look at me. you blur the whole world behind. i love your smile.you light up the whole town with that smile. you don't even know how you charm me. i savour the moments we look at each other.when i walk with you i don't see the others.
i love how we always go with the flow. thanks for taking me to so many places. i want to put my trust in you.

being with you right now it feels so good. everything feels so right. everything seem in place.thanks for everything. thanks for just existing. and thanks for loving me. now i have you and i feel so lucky. im a really lucky person. i got all the wishes i asked for and i got her best of all. i can't ask for too much. and i can't say i can't wish for anyone better than her. but i believe for now im really serious about this and i strongly pray she is. i'm a lucky lucky girl and i should be a hedonist in my relationship. no what ifs and no thoughts about the future. there's only the present, her and love.

but after all, the most important thing was that love, you never gave up on me for all the lousy things i did. i was a huge bitch. you never let go of me even when i am annoyed. and this is what proves to me. thank you. after so much, i really love you.

im thinking one day all the she waits for me to find me stressed up, angry, quiet and all. most of all boring, will affect us much. worse still, make sure that there is no 'us' happening.

i've never been in a relationship. but it's not that i don't know how to love. maybe i don't know all there is to know. but i know for sure humanity needs the capacity to love. and i want to learn to love

and i'm not idealistic enough to imagine this will last forever. i just hope it doesn't hang halfway like what others have experienced before.

how do you go on pretending it's right with me when you know someday you might feel that it is otherwise.blind faith.i know one day it might all end. or it might not.
only the present. i also want to believe that is all that matters. and right now leave it as that.

Wrote this on her card, which i truly felt from my heart. this is from me to you
"Before you came into my life, i never took responsibility for anything. And the thought of caring for someone was scary. But loving you and caring for you have been the most amazing and important thing Ive ever done. And I wouldnt trade for anything in the world."

So here's to many many good years with you, my love.

mich @ 4:37 PM